2024 was yet another year I spend mostly in my own company. Sometimes resenting myself for all the mental things that keep me from making any changes. It is as my therapist once said: I am on the dock, looking at the water, longing to be out there in the middle of the sea, but I am too afraid to untie the boat. 2024 was the year I stood inside my boat, unable to untie it and just let the currents take me out at sea.
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Eras Tour 2024: Impresii după concertul Taylor Swift. De ce atrage sute de mii de oameni în fiecare oraș în care cântă
În cele 3 ore și 15 minute trece prin absolut toată discografia sa și cântă melodiile cele mai reprezentative, în timp ce dansează pe tocuri pe o scenă imensă, timp în care mai și schimbă 16 ținute, în care cântă și la chitară sau pian, în care interacționează cu publicul și își păstrează latura umană pentru care este și atât de iubită de oameni.
Dincolo de artista Taylor Swift, întregul produs Eras Tour este absolut fenomenal.
O producție impresionantă nu doar la nivel auditiv, ci și vizual – de la grafică la recuzită, costume, sunet, lumini, tot tehnicul, dansatori, instrumentaliști, backing vocals, fotografi, cameramani, echipă de marketing și promovare.
Am fost la Copldplay pe Arena Națională și mi-a venit să intru în pământ de rușine
Pentru prima dată în viața mea de când merg la concerte, adică de vreo 15 ani, am simțit că îmi vine să intru în pământ de rușine. Momentul a fost, desigur, complet neașteptat. Mi s-a părut că momentul ține infinit de mult – și asta pentru că trebuia să stau și să îmi privesc în ochi jena pe care o simțeam în acel moment.
The Pondering of Being
Then your lungs start to constrict. It’s like the air is on a strike and refuses to go down your throat. Your entire ribcage starts alerting the system that something might be wrong. A glitch. Perhaps it’s a false alarm this time. Perhaps a little sleep will reset you. Perhaps you will wake up brand new tomorrow.
“Banshees of Inisherin”. On grief of being ghosted by your closest friend
Have you ever lost a friend and wondered for years what happened for them to suddenly remove you from their lives? Have you ever replied the last conversations in your mind, trying to find traces of something that might have been wrong, looking for signals that you might have missed or completely refused to see? Because I did. I did and felt all of the above. And it left emptier with each new person who vanished from my life.
Welcome back to Alta’s World, a letter
I’ve been gone from this place for a couple of years. The truth is, I could not find the words to keep telling my stories. To describe what I was going through.
letter to the ones who left, letter to the ones that remain
at the end of the day, when things get better, when things get worse, all we need is the certainty that somewhere in the world there’s a shoulder you can lean on.
On fear. And not knowing how to get rid of it
Afraid of not getting rid of all these insecurities, of the feeling of falling from my own body, of not being able to enjoy the summer I’ve so much longed for.
On letting go. A very short letter (II)
Perhaps I won’t be able to look at your pictures for a very long time. And I somehow feel like I’m letting you go. I’m trying to hold you back for as long as I can, but you just vanish into thin air and it’s getting harder and harder and harder to reconnect with you.
Day one. On words, money and friends
I was so convinced I would detach myself from everything that kept me back for almost two years. But it took me way to little time to understand that more money can’t buy feelings. It can’t compare to the feeling of belonging.
Alta's World 